Who wants to live forever?

The past week has been an eye opener for me. Meeting new people, school orientation and most importantly spending time with my family. Yes that's right, the good old trustworthy family. Blood is thicker than water, for those of you who don't already know that, you're dumb and one day you will realise how foolish you are. My cousin came down from canada with his newly married-to-wife. I for one have been particularly fussy and protective when it comes to mates for any family members. But she was a breath of fresh air. She was fun, witty, smart and did silly little things that entertained everyone. She was successful too! In a word she was genuine. She reminded me of someone, far, far away. Susan, you're wonderful to have around! Welcome to the family.

Speaking of genuine, after a while you begin to see people's true colours. It usually takes around 1-2 years when all the fake covers they put up begin to fade away. I'm sure many of you out there have experienced people like this. Fake people are everywhere. One example of their characteristics is materialism. Be warned this might cause some pain in your chest area, but you know, the truth hurts. Think about it, you ask someone "So are you materialistic?" Then they would say something like obviously not. Who the hell is gonna say "YES I AM MATERIALISTIC". Of course they're gonna say no. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. So to all those people out there who have said they're not, but actually are, GROW UP. Yes I'm talking about the people who say they're not materialistic and then spend lavishly on expensive branded stuff and hang out with rich people for their cars and money. Now there's nothing wrong with that or even wanting it. Just don't say you're not materialistic, it's sickening and distasteful. Just admit it. It casts a shadow of doubt over you and your honesty.

Moving on, coffee chats are my new interest. I knew they existed but I don't know why I never indulged myself. Stimulating intellectual chats over a cuppa, now that's good stuff. This is especially true when you converse with interesting people like Keli! Mind you, she's a smart, pretty, successful woman who's engaged. Now what the hell is she doing having coffee with me? Haha I dont know. But it sure is funny to hear about perspectives from an older woman. And especially since we both didnt make it through the SIA interviews (I got knocked out at Interview 2, and she at Interview 6), we had something similar in common to build upon. Haha. What was surprising too was her knowledge of 16th century renaissance english literature. I thought I could dumbfound her and keep her quiet for a while by telling her little excerpts that I liked since I did some research on my own in the past. Not only did she know them, but she even knew who the authors were. Now that's impressive, since she came from a business background. Thanks Keli! You have partially restored my faith in humanity.

Who wants to live forever? I do. Not to see who's coming on next on Oprah or who's banging who on ET but just simply to devour the vast ocean of knowledge out there, and that can never be accomplished in a few lifetimes. Book are wonderful. Knowledge is endless.

Orientation for school was not bad. For a private school it was good. Having heard many horror stories and even experiencing some myself from other private institutions, APMI seems to have the right balance. There seemed to be no weirdos, and that's crucial. There were pretty girls and ugly guys. Haha wtf? Anyway there's an interesting mix of journalists, art directors and advertising people. Not to mention some from SIA. Urgh. Best of all it's nice to be one of the youngest for a change, young people happening what right? In the beginning, there were nervous looks and stares and then we were forced to introduce ourselves. Now, if you know me, you'd know I'd do something funny. When it came to my turn, I made sure I knew what I had to say to make everyone laugh and to make everyone else's introduction pale in comparison. What a bastard. Well, I succeeded of course and people remember me! That's my style. I make you laugh, you remember me. Simple.

DBL O
Just you and me
Slow dancing to Mario
As carefree as can be.

Not so long ago
Our hearts pounded as one
I was your hero
Dont let it come undone.

P.S. Happy belated birthday darling daughter, I wish you eternal happiness and want to thank you for being a dear friend close to my heart too.

P.P.S. Barcelona killed AC Milan. Woo hoo.

P.P.P.S. Peeps scratches her bum and wriggles her nose when she sleeps sometimes.

Unbreakable

Everyone's has their breaking points. Do you know yours?

Some people would like to think they are unbreakable and nothing can bring them down. Just like how everyone has a price, everyone is breakable. Be it by a process of erosion or a sheer tsunami of pressure that breaks them, it is inevitable.

As long I walk into this difficult yet defining period of my life, I would like to come out of it unscathed yet all the more wiser from the experience. I'm not afraid of hardship, it develops your character to the extent of it being necessary in one's life.

As a thousand tons of pressure converge to triangulate its intensity on me, I would like to thank everyone that has helped me up to this point. But I have to walk the line alone. Like all of us must do someday. Thank you dear friends.

As I watch the clock ticking away, I wonder, will time stand still for me at some point for me to reflect and make the right decisions instead of me just rushing into them? I hope so, I don't wanna live to regret anything.

As I sit here typing this, I wish the people close to me knew me better but I only have myself to blame. I shouldn't have been so mysterious and guarded with information regarding myself. But then again I have never been a big fan of attention.

Lastly, I hope that I will have the courage and perhaps audacity to defeat my shadows that are haunting me instead of being overwhelmed by them. I don't want to become cold and emotion-less again. Robots don't last long.

I dont like being cryptic, only the people who really love and understand me the most would be able to decrypt this. I'm tired of everything, I shouldn't have to explain since it's easier for me this way. I'm tired. I'm drained.

Wish me luck.

A song with more meaning to me than others

Sometimes late at night I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

-Garth Brooks
If Tomorrow Never Comes

What the hell

Today when I was queuing up to buy a calling card for Elise, I overheard a couple behind me talking about something that got me angry. This was how it roughly went.

Woman: I think you should ask me before you make decisions like that again.

Man: You know, a smart woman should always know when to hold her tongue. (I was like wtf?)

Woman: Are you saying I'm stupid?

Man: No, I'm just saying you're not smart.

After that they stopped talking altogether. What the hell is going on in this world? I was quite shocked especially since I am someone who prefers to surround himself with women who have a mind of their own instead of the typical submissive type.

Comments please.

What does commitment mean to you?

Commitment is the state of being bound emotionally or intellectually to a course of action or to another person or person(s).

“Desire is the key to motivation, but it's determination and commitment to an unrelenting pursuit of your goal - a commitment to excellence - that will enable you to attain the success you seek."
-Mario Andretti

“Never promise more than you can perform.”
-Publilius Syrus

“Men are allowed to have passion and commitment for their work ... a woman is allowed that feeling for a man, but not her work.”
-Barbra Streisand

"Don't wait for someone else to make your life terrific. That's your job."
-Anonymous

"When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
-Nora Ephron

So folks, what does commitment mean to you? Be it to yourself, your work or your loved ones. Are you someone who simply makes a commitment and doesnt stick through it? That's probably why some of you out there don't make promises because you know you probably wont be able to keep them, even though its better that you did. C'mon, think about it. Let's say you want someone who owes you to promise you something, but instead of a promise, all you get is a 'try my best'. What do you draw from someone like that? Untrustworthiness? Unreliability? Or just plain incompetence?

And then comes the commitment to yourself. Have you been unable to commit to anything long enough to make something of it? You know, starting a job, quitting. Not finishing a project. That sorta stuff. If you can't even commit to yourself, don't even dream about committing to other people. That would be utterly misleading and untruthful.

If you exhibit any of the listed conditions, it's time you wake up. You will never amount to anything in life if you have problems with commitment. Seek help if your will-power is waning. Seek solace in a loved one. Do something about it because before you know, your life will be over and you would have accomplished nothing due to your incompetence to commit.

Birthday #Part 2

Well well well, here is the much awaited part 2 which will be heavily encrypted to protect the identities of those involved and their activities. Ah yes, where were we? After brewerkz we went down to *******. Not much fun is it? Well if you'd been paying attention you'd know where it was. We were lugging bags of alcohol, soft drinks and other stuff. Having already checked out this particular bar on the net, I decided to go to ****** bar. What a letdown! Don't trust the internet Solomon. Even if it says your IQ is 2 million and you are the center of the universe, nothing else is true Solomon. Because when a place that calls itself ****** bar and has only one ugly scarecrow of a girl in a bikini, it is a scam. "Solomon, that's mean", a certain frowning hands-on-her-hips Elise would say.

Anyway, we went to *** next to salvage the situation. I would like to mention names but I am going to be nice for a change (Karma +1). We were just, you know, the usual, drinking alcohol, talking cock, making fun of each other, killing whales and the like.

Ok, I'm tired.

To make a long story short, 5 saints remained after some left, we burned a ****, we skinnydipped, dickslapped someone (Male, Female? Wouldnt you like to know!), did some offroading on sand and stole some beach ******. It was the most fun I'd ever had! Thank you band of brothers!

P.S. I am excited! There is activity in my tagboard!

I got tagged!

Yeah yeah, I haven't been blogging much and I don't have a good excuse so too bad.
Since I got tagged by my baby, I shall do this questionnaire.

What were you doing ten years ago?
I was just starting secondary school and I had to make new friends, became a prefect (HA!), joined rugby, soccer and wanted to join NCC until I saw someone that looked like me (Raymond) and everyone was making fun of us so I decided not to join, with much regret. I also was learning the ways of become a playa haha.

Five Songs Which You Know All The Lyrics Right Off Your Head
Stand By Me - Oasis
City of Blinding Lights - U2
Paint My Love (Gay) - MLTR
Hazard - Richard Marx
Bed of Roses - Bon Jovi

Five Things You Would Do If You Were A Millionaire
Make myself handsome
Invest money for my children and grandchildren, anymore after that not my problem already
Buy a nice house for my family in Australia/Canada
Buy a Lotus Elise so I can tangkap someone
Bet $100,000 on a Man Utd match (Crazy?)

Five Bad Habits
I procrastinate too much
Bite my fingernails
Forget new people's names
I tend to forget things
I dont like to shave when I'm home

Five Things You Like Doing
Seducing Elise
Cruising in Ray's car
Drinking till the sun comes up
Sleeping
Winning at everything

Five Things You Will Never Wear, Buy Or Get New Again?
Short tight shorts
Alien workshop jeans (Wtf?!)
See-through Tees
Steroids
Yellow socks

Five Favourite Toys/Things
PS2
Peeps!
My PC and Laptop
Zara shirts
Elise =)

You're IT! (Five People To Do This)
Davi (You became 12 years old as of April 1st)
Jeff
Raymond
Kate Beckinsale
Kiera Knightley