The horror of Singapore soccer

About a week ago, I went to watch my first Singapore international soccer match for a very very long time. Haven't been to one since the malaysia cup days (the so called glory days). I went to watch..... Singapore VS Uzbekistan.

For the vast majority who wouldn't bother about the triviality of Singapore soccer, we lost 3-7. Probably the most one sided game I have ever seen, including primary school matches and secondary school matches. To say Singapore was absymal would be a gross understatement.

I don't just watch the matches, I analyse them. All the players except a few attacking ones were shitty, like a 2/10 rating. But the most blame has to go onto the defenders, midfielders and the MANAGER. Singapore's coach decided that Singapore was good enough to attack uzbekistan, so you could see how many players were attacking, and most of them not tracking back. They were almost in anticipation of a failed Uzbek attack and waiting to counter attack in turn. It was like Tampines Rovers going all out attack against err Liverpool. Sure they might nick a goal or two (haha liverpool sucks), but everytime Uzbek attacked, they scored. Fast, clean and clinical.

This match was not only embarrassing but I reckon Singapore might have lost quite a few fans as well. I can bet that this wasn't based on the result entirely, but the lack of effort shown by the players. Simple elementary errors combined with laziness and lack of determination just proved to the world what a joke Singapore 2010 world cup ambitions are. If they let in 7 goals againsts Uzbekistan, what will the Brazils and Argentinas do to them? Concentrate on sailing, swimming and table tennis and limit the buying of 'PRs' to those sports I say.

Euro 2008

I can't get enough of Euro 2008! Making me some good money too!

GO PORTUGAL!

Money money money

It's time to make money!

Donations for Canon EOS 450D would be appreciated!

And wait for it... Chelsea SUCKS.

Keep your guard up

To all those who have been hurt before, male or female, always remember to keep your guard up. The walls that have been built over time to protect you should never be lulled into a false sense of safety and be brought down. 2-3 months at the minimum should be the getting-to-know-you period, even then it should remain as platonic as possible.

To that effect, rushing into anything is dangerous, no matter how innocent and 'safe' that other person may be. Needless to say, this being my blog after all, my walls are as high as they could ever possibly be. And at times, sure I've wanted to bring em down but I'm glad I didnt. I dunno what happened to that heartless bastard when I was 16-19. But I do have a feeling he's in there somewhere, just waiting... for the right provocation and this time with everything that I do know, it's gonna get damn ugly real fast.

TRUST NO ONE.

Stupid

After reading my post again, I've begun to feel a bit stupid. I should know better, since this isn't the first time it happened. I cannot drink like this anymore. Guess my body is giving my a huge sign. Wish I had a girlfriend who'd nag me to stop drinking. Everyone knows how much I love my alcohol and anything that's scared me shitless enough to start thinking about not binge drinking like that anymore speaks volumes. I never really understood it when people said they had no control or didn't know what they were doing when they were drunk. For me, it wasn't an excuse. I guess that shit really happens.

On a lighter note, I'm a fun drunk, though I can be annoying to certain people.

What alcohol has done to me

Over the years, I've consumed what many people would consider a lifetime's worth of alcohol. Sure I've had good times, sometimes even the best of times, not forgetting the most embarrassing of times. But alcohol is really killing my memory. The thing is, I would be high or close to drunk but I'd still be able to function normally but I just can't remember!

Take last night for example, we went to zouk, had every type of alcohol imaginable stoutbeertequilawinelongislandtea (I think I was trying to get drunk on purpose) and that's where the problems started. After 2, I began to lose bits of my memory. I remember moving our drinks to another place then there was this fat girl who was staring at me and/or Joceyln for the longest time. I wouldn't put it beyond me to have made fun of her for her to be staring at us although under normal circumstances I would have more restraint. Imagine this huge girl who looked very high, swaying on the spot and staring at you. Suddenly I was there by myself and the next thing I could remember was being on the podium. Seems like when I drink too much I have a natural affinity with the podium. So I remember dancing dancing dancing, then suddenly I was outside my door trying to sober up in case anyone was awake!

Yes yesssssss I go through this all the time. No matter how smashed I am, I can always act sober for 10 seconds when I reach home. Don't ask me how, that's just the way it is. It's been inbuilt in me for the better part of the last 8 years of drinking. It's called the 'Wake the fuck up, you're almost there' mode. Then blank. I dunno if I actually made it to my room. I dunno how I opened my door. I just remember bracing myself to be sober for 10 seconds.

I wake up and look around. My TV and computer is on. Apparently I was doing both. I'm in my boxers. My vision is blur. Immediately, I go to check my contact lens case to see if I had fucked my recently acquired 200 dollar lenses and they were intact. I'm confused. The last time I couldn't remember things like this was roughly a year ago, my birthday when I was so smashed that I puked and got dragged home. I check my phone and according to it, I received calls from my mum and a few friends. None of which I remember. So I try to remember... and nothing. According to my friends I was alive and well, I wasn't drunk. But I just can't remember anything! It's scary to a certain extent not to remember so much but when you've got your best buds around you, there's nothing to be be afraid of really cos you know that they will take care of you.

So that's what alcohol has done to me. Extreme memory loss. Okay okay, maybe it only happens 2 or 3 times a year so I'll stop whining. The only thing I worry about is offending someone and/or doing/saying something really stupid cos I know I can have a really evil tongue which is kept in check 99% of the time while I chuckle to myself at all the mean things I could have said.

Alright, I'm gonna go rest now and revive my obsession of retrieving my memory. Ugh. So kids, this is why you shouldn't drink.

Ola

Hello darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

- Simon & Garfunkel

I like darkness and silence, they seem to be the preferred mode of existence for me nowadays. The occasional familiar voice of friends and family notwithstanding, I just can't seem to 'let anyone in', if you get my drift. I've been so used to blocking new people out on purpose until I've become somewhat crippled, for better or for worse. My reason (or excuse) would be of course that no one would ever measure up to my own friends (awww), which I've found to be very true on numerous occasions.

Hello darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again.

Let's embrace whatever time we have left my old friends. We aint getting any younger. As we pursue our individual paths, let us remember from whence we were stoned in DP1 and the first 15 minutes of Ali G were our biggest obstacle. :)

Ciao amigos.

"Update already la"

I think I know who posted that. But I shan't mention any names lest I embarrass myself.

Err Happy new year and Merry Christmas to those who have been putting their holidays on hold in anticipation of my next post. Well, here it is! You can go celebrate now!

To be honest, I lost my verve for blogging after my laptop and computer crashed simultaneously. Lost a lot of stuff. Lost the mood to do anything 'online' or computer related unless absolutely necessary. Everything's fixed now though. Nothing computer related ever gets left not fixed if its near me.

It's been 16 days since I last smoked and the resolve to not pick it up again seems to be getting stronger with every passing day. Satisfying the urge with ALCOHOL seems to help though. But don't worry, I'm not substituting one addiction for another. Technically, I started drinking way before any of my vices. The now extinct free flow nights were simply the best times I ever had clubbing. And come to think of it, I wasn't even smoking then. Which just shows that I don't need it to have fun. (Hints at smokers)

Moving on to new year resolutions, I've only made a modest 5 this year. Well mainly because I make like 99999 every year and only manage to do 5 or so. So percentage-wise I'm just killing myself. Anyway these resolutions are:-

1) Quit Smoking (DONE)
2) Get a DSLR
3) Have a 5 digit bank account balance (Here we go again, wishful thinking)
4) To not club unless it's someone's birthday
5) To become super-fit

Correct me if I'm wrong but the first resolution helps all my other ones (except No.4) in some way or another. I'm not gonna explain. That's why you have a brain to figure things out!

This year I'll turn 25. It doesn't even feel like it. Although things are slowing down considerably, I just think my low energy levels are just down to being me being unfit.

I'm going to sleep now!
Till I post again, Bye!