Lost but only because I've not been discovered

So long since I've posted! Omg what have I been busy with? Can't really think of any decent excuses.

I've finally succumbed to the realization that I'm no longer able to take a leap of faith or try new things. Of course when I was 16/17, I was immortal, like everyone else. Never afraid to try anything, never afraid to fail, never afraid to jump and fall. But over the years, that 'courage' has somehow deteriorated and I can only blame myself for being too comfortable.

I now know that the only reason I've been lost out at sea is that I haven't been discovered. Simply because I've refused to put myself out there. Be it, asking a girl out or sending resumes/going for job interviews. I guess it's time for the pride and ego to be shelved. The job of my dreams isn't gonna land on my lap with me sitting on my ass. Neither is the girl of my dreams gonna give me a lapdance.

Is this what it means to grow up? I'd love to live in denial but life won't wait for me. So many times I've wondered, is this all life has in store for me? I could live my normal, monotonous life and be forever unsatisfied or leave my comfort zone for greener pastures.

I really wish someone would tell me what to do or how to do it. Even though I know the best way would be to find out myself. The trials and tribulations of life sure do suck. I just hope I can look back in a few years' time and pat myself on my back knowing that this was the turning point. This was when I decided ordinary wasn't enough.

It's time to bring back the mildly arrogant, yet confident and CHARMING fella.